Psalm 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.
Last night was one of THOSE nights. Stemming from getting out of work late with an end-of-the-day “catastrophe”, a domino effect of EPIC proportions took place. Long ago my hubby taught me the H.A.L.T. acronym: Hungry. Angry. Lonely. Tired. A recipe for destruction. When these emotions ride together….HALT!! Now, in a household of 6, I don’t think anyone was lonely, however, the other three were PRESENT and ACCOUNTED FOR and my goodness; It wasn’t pretty.
The good news is that once dinner was under way and blood sugars stabilized there was a good recovery all around. Who knew pot roast was such a blanket of comfort? The unfortunate news is, when these events occur, it takes a toll on hubby and I as we “relive” the events mentally and backtrack trying to pinpoint WHERE we went wrong, WHAT could have been done differently, and HOW we can regroup. Essentially, we question our parenting (sometimes wondering WHY God thought we were EVER capable of this job!!!) and that can really take a toll on the heart.
After the dust settles though, the best we can do is……just do our best. God, in His infinite wisdom, DID gift us with these children. And even though I often wonder what He was thinking, because surely I can’t be up for THIS job, I know He has prepared me (and my hubby) for this job. We aren’t perfect. God KNOWS that. We misstep daily. But we ARE doing our best. We are looking to Him for guidance. We do our best to fix what’s broken and take a different path when one road fails. Each day is a learning experience and the learning curve changes with it. And at the end of the day, if we love our children and each other, He will take care of the rest. Guiding. Guarding. Protecting. Two steps forward, one step back. One day at a time.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.